When I was more depressed and angry than I am these days, I often thought "How come my dreams didn't come true?" But the more I thought about it, the more I realized - I don't HAVE dreams. Not clear, focused dreams like "I wanna be a doctor when I grow up." And I figured out that's the key. You can have anything come TRUE if it doesn't EXIST. Now, I'd like to be able to say that I had instant clarity and now I know exactly where I want life to take me, but I don't. I'm a 30-year-old stay-at-home-mom and I don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
But...now that I know that I need to focus on what I want, I think clarity will come. Maybe not, but we'll see. Sorry for the horrible pictures, I'm still doing the upload to facebook from my phone, download to the computer, upload here.
Love the 3/4. Deciding what you want out of life is so difficult. When I went to Uni I was convinced I wanted to be a scientist. I was going to do something cutting edge. The world was at my feet. And now I teach, at Diploma level, 2 days a week. It took me a very long time to realise that this was not a sign of failure, and that I am happy. Not ecstatic, woohoo, I'm off to work. But happy enough. Good luck finding your way.
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