I hate when people use those words and are talking about my art. And then I look at this girl's legs and I'm like "OK, they're messy." The things is, sometimes a journal page takes weeks or months to "finish" because I keep painting over it and over it and over it, or I do something and then ignore it for a long time before I know what the page needs. The words on this page have been there for a long time. I don't even know how long, but at least six months. And I was scared and angry when I wrote them. The sprayed background has also been part of the page for months. But the girl - I painted her yesterday. She needed to come out. She is nowhere near the best girl I've ever painted. But I needed to get her out of my head and onto this page. Fast. So I did. And I don't care that she's not perfect. She's scared and lost and sad and lonely, so why shouldn't she look it?